As a college student, I tend to think alot about cost. You know? How much a tank of gas will cost. If eating the prison food in the caf is better than the cost of a decent meal. How much watching Teen Wolf instead of studying will cost my Financial Management grade. You get it. Everything costs something. There’s no free lunch. Even the “free gift” of salvation is not free. Jesus paid a cost, and instructed us to count the cost of following Him.
Recently, God has continuously put this whole concept of “cost” in my path. What will it cost for me to fully follow Him in order to bring Him glory? This leads straight into fear. The fear of what it will cost. Rejection? Failure? Pain? Ridicule? The list goes on and on.
God has given me a passion that I pray He will continue to cultivate into a holy obsession, an intoxication with His presence. I know that there is much, much more to His presence, to Him, than what we are currently content with. Look at Exodus 33: The people of Israel had the opportunity to meet with the Ancient of Days and they were content to stay outside. Moses ran in. The Living God met with Moses, spoke with him “as one speaks to a friend,” while the people were staying outside “worshipping.” If worship does not lead you into the presence of God, then why are you doing it? For the feel goods and glory chills? Worship should lead you into intimacy with the Father through Jesus with the power of the Holy Spirit.
Okay, back to the point of this. God has given me specific ways to follow Him. He has given me songs that need to be finished and recorded. He shows me steps along the way that I need to take. He has given me hopes and dreams for the future. All of which is scary. All of which will come at a cost. But the cost of not following Him is much greater. I think that’s where we get things all screwed up. We tend to look at the cost of following Jesus, but forget about the cost of not following Him. And really, if we gain Him, what have we lost?
Here’s the reality: we’re going to be rejected and feel pain at some point. We’re going to make mistakes and fail. People are going to make fun of us. The one person whose musical opinion means the most to you might tell you that the song you poured your heart, soul and spirit into isn’t good enough. You might try to hit a high note and it might sound like a dying cow in a hail storm. You might get so nervous that you don’t even know what you’re saying when you’re trying to share something God put on your heart. But if He gave you those things to do, trust Him. His glory is our aim. His grace is our victory. His love is our strength. He is our reward.
No longer will I be content with standing outside while someone else goes in to meet with my God. The cost of not going in is far too great. The cost of following Him is nothing compared to the reward.
No matter the cost, we will trust/ and we will follow You./ Do what it takes to receive/ the glory that You’re due.